What Hurts

Not the ephemeral way of our romance…
nor that love, once again, has escaped me.
Not the cyclone of questions and confusion…
nor the self-loathing that rejection brings.
Not how you gave back all that i had to give…
nor how you took all you had given me.
Not the memories playing on in my head…
nor the dreams that play-back you leaving me.
Not the feelings of sadness when i awake…
nor the loneliness seconds before sleep.
Not that i put my whole heart out on the line…
nor the doubting you ever cared for me.
Not how i have to start all over again….
nor how i jumped, just to have you drop me.

What hurts the most is i’ve lost YOU completely.

author: rashael crystal